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I woke up,
And the first thing I desperately want to do
Is to find a chapel to pray deeply.
But such a living space is a luxury this atheist country does not have.

I need immense strength to get through this day
And the next week.
One person has never tested my patience for this long.

I have never met such passive-aggressiveness,
A person who slithers like a snake amongst people
Who smiles warmly at you
But stab you in the back,
All the time with a sickening smile.

Dear lord,
How does this person live?
I really don’t care,
But she’s out to ruin mine.

What the fuck.
Why can’t these people just deal with themselves.
Can’t they see where their lives are heading?
Even if they choose so,
Why must they take others along with them.

So sick of this.

Tumble.
Church.
Work.
Mortgage.
Fear.
Fears.
Lack of work?
Travel.
House sitter.
Unsettledness.
Personal training.
Gay?
Soccer.
Human relations.
Personal relations.
Thin. Line.
Faith.
Breathe.
Friends.
Money.
Worry.
Calm.
Uncontrollable.
Tumble.

Breathe.

Myalgias headaches and the feel of fevers to boot.
Yet the need to wrap my jacket around me in this brilliant sunshine.
I knew my time was up
When 2 patients coughed in my face
And the other two tried their best to avoid spewing on me.
Now I’m at home
Unable to work
And not able to study.
Slept the whole day away.
Unbelievable.

Spent it like every ordinary night.
Actually,
Spent it like how I crave some nights to be,
More nights to be.
On the couch with the dogs sprawled around me
Watching tv crime dramas back to back
Snoozing when I can
And of course with a plate of carbonara.

Was asked to go to the city to celebrate,
I declined.
Time I decide and admit that I really hate all those loud partying.

I heard the fireworks,
Could not be bothered to watch.

New year resolutions?
I don’t think I’m ever the sort to wait a year to do something.

2013
Lots to look forward to.
Many challenges await,
Some already foreseen.
Exciting things planned.

Definitely need more studying done.
And I hope soccer finally finally pays off.